In need of air...

Have you ever had the feeling of being alone even when you're surrounded by people at all times? A few nights ago I was feeling that way and the only way out that I had was to look up, look to the heavens and hope that God would maybe somehow hear my cry; and when I look at the sky the stars are blinking, I see a perfectly shining sky that reflects nothing less than how much God loves me;

In my heart there are so many expectations, so many dreams and desires that no one can fulfill them. I need to be loved by others and I need to love others, the jewels, the diamonds that I've been looking for? Well, I found them and they all shine, they blink back at me saying how much God loves me; What could be the reason to love other than love itself? but why do I still feel so lonely in the middle of all this? There seems to be a deeper cry within me for a Greater Love still; The Holy Spirit has become the breath of my life each day that goes by and more and more I realize that I can't stay one second without breathing otherwise I'll feel lifeless in my spirit; Papa, come be with me, don't let me feel lonely; don't let me take another breath that is not blown out of You.