look up a the rain...

daisy, give yourself away
look up at the rain
the beautiful display
of power and surrender
giving us today
when you yourself away...

It's so hard to let go... To let go of my desires, of my dreams, of my emotions, to understand that there is a time when I must let go of people and feelings that have once filled my heart. Today driving back home I was looking at the sky and you could see some stars shining from in between the clouds and the rain drops and how mighty and giving the rain can be; If my desire is to see God raining down with His love and grace upon me and the ones around me then I am also called to be a rain and to give myself away, to surrender things that I've taken as mine so I can receive drops of what God has for me.

The rain may seem easy but it's hard; it's demanding, it requires a state of emptiness, of giving yourself away. It has been hard for me to have to let some people who are dear to me go and every day a small piece of me dies but from this death a new life arises. A life driven by love and total dependence not on me but on who God is through me.

Daddy, please help me to let these things and these people simply go, let me dettach the parts of my heart that need to be closely attached to you; and one day if you Will bring them back to me but each day I know more and more that the only one worth going after is You. It can be very hard but to have the chance to look into Your eyes of Love makes everything worth it. I prefer to be an anonymous intercessor than a frustrated lover of the ones that are part of me.

I love you, I am Yours and I don't want to be no one else's. More than ever I know for Whom I was meant for.

not enough...

Have you ever felt like giving up everything you have? just surrendering everything.. Like a feeling that you wanna pull your heart and your inside and give it away and scream of how much you want to Love the first person that walks before you but you know that you're not capable of doing that alone? I desperately want to start seeing the power of God moving more than it is now, I come to my knees and I fearfully feel like my heart is going to burst out of me;

God I pursuit you with all my strength and hunger but it still isn't enough, I need more; show me what I can give to you because I want to; I don't wanna keep anything for myself besides You; a shout in me, Vox Dei, voice of God, breath of my life, the very meaning of everything that I can think, where are you? Consume me entirely. Let me be a burning torch consumed by Your Love for the world to see... please hear my cry, because I can't stand another day without becoming One with You papa...

Life!

For this past 2 weeks God has been teaching me more about the power of my words and how the authority that I have in certain areas are a result of the living experience that His spirit pushes me to go through! Many things have been happening and the excitement and anticipation grows in me; I have met new people and learned that there are many human desires that I might have to sacrifice in this new season of my life but they will all be worth the precious chance to be where I know I am suppose to; Every moment has had a special touch and sweetness to it, every day a new shine, my heart has grown in love and been taught to be loved by a gift He has given to me;

Despite of all the things I will have to let go, I know that the changes and transformations that have been going on within me will go on and will mold me into the servant and lover I've always dreamed to be; Like someone really special asked me the other day:"Would you live in a cold place because of the sun?" yes! the answer remits me to a deeper questioning as to what point would I be willing to go and what would I dispense my will to fulfill a desire that warms up my heart and firstly God's heart? The response to this is anywhere, anything, all I have belongs to God and I have made the choice to give up all my rights and desires to retain as mine His; as a simple and wonderful consequence the colors shine brighter, the air seems cooler, the light that shines from my princess eyes are more pure, and the reality of a Kingdom invisible becomes so visible and touchable that all things gain a new taste, a new meaning, a new purpose;

I invite you today to live for the Glory of God, to live life knowing that despite of all the struggles and hard times that we all face we understand that God finds ways to shine His Glory to us and prove His never ending Love; come with me and experience this delivering Grace, that turns life into a sweet sweet sweet love story!

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12 puritan principles for a spiritual jorney...

1. I admit to be incapable in front of my traumas, emotions and compulsive behaviors that turn my life ungovernable...
2. I was led to believe that a power above me could bring back my own sanity.
3. I've decided to surrender my life and my will to God's hand.
4. I've made a detailed and fearless moral review of myself.
5. I admit before God, before myself and to any other human being the exact nature of all my mistakes and flaws
6. I've made myself entirely available to let God remove all my deviations in character and personality.
7. I've humbly presented myself begging that He would remove all my imperfections according to His purpose.
8. I've written down every person that I've sinned against and proposed in my heart to heal all those wounds.
9. I've made direct and incisive reparations to any of those people whenever possible.
10. I continued evaluating my life and whenever I found myself to be wrong I promptly and openly admitted so.
11. I seek through prayer and meditation to come closer to God, asking Him to know His truth and Will for my life and the Grace to live by such.
12. Having experienced a spiritual awakening as a result of these principles, I seek to take this to others and practice spiritual disciplines that will strengthen the Truth of the Word of God in different aspects of my life...

Soli Deo Gloria

"Wir sein Pettler, Hoc est Verum"

The more I seek God the more I find not to know anything about Him. For these past times my quest has been towards finding out who I am, but what I've discovered that who I am is not the right question that I should have been making but instead who Is God in me? My identity can only be truly revealed in Jesus Christ and outside of Him all things lose their value.

In the Bible whenever God called someone out the first step was to reveal who they are. David, son of Jesse; Saul, son of Kish. Jesus, son of the carpenter; The world tries to create a picture of who I am based on the world around me, but only when the transforming Love of God comes people will look and see David, Saul and Jesus, sons of the living God; once again I turn to my Creator and ask Him to show me who I am, but in my human nature I go off trying to find that somewhere else or in someone else, maybe in my gifts... maybe my talents or even my heart can tell me who I am; but none of these seem to fulfill my thirst.

And wherever I go, whatever I do, I always come back to the same place; God is the meaning of my life, he is my identity. But I realize even more that in my life I've never been able to give anything but always receive; my salvation, even what I name to be my love for others and for God is granted to me firstly from God; then who I am? I have found a clue to the answer in the last words of someone who hunted and pursued a merciful God for his entire life. Someone who tried the best he could to be a perfect saint and understood that by his own will he would never be able to hardly even breath; He understood that his entire life was nothing but a small drop in the ocean of God's Grace and all He could do was surrender to the mighty Love that haunted his human mind.

"We are beggars, That is the Truth" ("Wir sein Pettler, Hoc est Verum") - Martin Luther

"Here I stand. I can do no other. ..My consciousness is captive to the Word of God... God help me. Amen."