"Wir sein Pettler, Hoc est Verum"

The more I seek God the more I find not to know anything about Him. For these past times my quest has been towards finding out who I am, but what I've discovered that who I am is not the right question that I should have been making but instead who Is God in me? My identity can only be truly revealed in Jesus Christ and outside of Him all things lose their value.

In the Bible whenever God called someone out the first step was to reveal who they are. David, son of Jesse; Saul, son of Kish. Jesus, son of the carpenter; The world tries to create a picture of who I am based on the world around me, but only when the transforming Love of God comes people will look and see David, Saul and Jesus, sons of the living God; once again I turn to my Creator and ask Him to show me who I am, but in my human nature I go off trying to find that somewhere else or in someone else, maybe in my gifts... maybe my talents or even my heart can tell me who I am; but none of these seem to fulfill my thirst.

And wherever I go, whatever I do, I always come back to the same place; God is the meaning of my life, he is my identity. But I realize even more that in my life I've never been able to give anything but always receive; my salvation, even what I name to be my love for others and for God is granted to me firstly from God; then who I am? I have found a clue to the answer in the last words of someone who hunted and pursued a merciful God for his entire life. Someone who tried the best he could to be a perfect saint and understood that by his own will he would never be able to hardly even breath; He understood that his entire life was nothing but a small drop in the ocean of God's Grace and all He could do was surrender to the mighty Love that haunted his human mind.

"We are beggars, That is the Truth" ("Wir sein Pettler, Hoc est Verum") - Martin Luther

"Here I stand. I can do no other. ..My consciousness is captive to the Word of God... God help me. Amen."